Austria – 2013
I’ve been reading a lot about self-development and improving self-esteem.. Apparently change should start from within.
So, i decided to let my hair grow :D true! that small change doesn’t have an impact on others, I know, but for me it was something! I was freed from the routine. Regardless if it looked nice or not. It helped me!
Is it easy to wake up one day and admit to yourself; “well, i shouldn’t be doing this and that and….” But you know, blaming yours
elf will not change these in a day. Without the willingness to change, nothing will!
I had to observe what was wrong, what it was that hurt me, what it was that I had to take action in. Have we ever stopped and start thinking of what we’re doing, daily? is it just the routine or our traditions that keep us moving in this circle? have we ever stopped realizing that we shouldn’t lie, being hypocrites or even why are we going daily to our jobs? Honestly, i never thought about any of those rituals. Sadly, yes, rituals for most of us.
You should read this book, it helped me a lot: The Alchemist, for Paulo Coelho (was recommended by my sweet girl ☺ )
We all have the desire to change, but it’s sinking deep inside, that we can’t even find it, yet we believe in it. So, i decided to start with the small details. I went back to writing, once in a while. This helped me understand myself, requesting my daily activities to change them, see what I’ve done good, and what I’ve done bad.
But what kind of change was i looking at? external change.. internal… maybe changing my style or my cellphone :D
We never know what we need to change unless we are motivated for something, unless we add a meaning to our life, otherwise, everything will remain the same and the cycle to strat again.
I learned that from a very close friend of mine. She gave meaning to the smallest moments in life, she had something she couldn’t live without, it made her stop when others just went with the flow, change routes when she felt she was going the wrong path, it all summed up with the willingness to make a good change. This is where it all started.
Bit by bit I was relieved from lots of things, like guilt, fear, sadness..
I feel like i have a lot to share , but I will have to leave it for the next time the real changes and how to spot the bad habits hidden in our daily routine.
See you soon!